I miss the person I was;
dream big,
full of life,
go-getter,
adventurous,
risk taker,
I lost myself slowly since 5 years ago, the begin of reality.
Adulthood.
I am still crawling, and learning in this adulthood. I'm scared, I'm emotional, I'm sensitive, I'm scared, Really scared.
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I've stopped dreaming for a while now. I feel like none of my dreams ever fulfilled. It makes me sick of dreaming and hoping.
I don't know what to do right now.
I don't know how to feel at the moment.
Everything seems so blurry to me.
Help,
I'm hopeless.
I'm dreamless.
Part of me beg me to stop,
part of me keep on encouraging to move forward.
But, I'm really tired now.
Oh world,
please be easy on me,
for I don't know,
how long I can still hang on.
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Architectural Assistant.
How much do you think I got paid monthly?
I want to give up my job as it don't give me the life I deserve.
I don't work 9-5 doing an architect job but getting paid as a shop keeper.
I don't work on design and all damn blueprints to getting paid as a receptionist.
Why is the world so cruel?
I spend years in school and I get paid as lower as that, no matter how good I am with my job.
Fuck Malaysian employment system.
Fuck Malaysian wages.
Fuck me as a Malaysian.
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
Take me back when Malaysia doesn't kill their citizen sanity like today.
