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Mar 22, 2018

dear sweet heart

this time, the heart broke is indeed real.
almost 3 years, I've waited for him. 
at the corner, in front of our faculty, I had my first talk with him. 
still, clear in my mind.

later,
I was told, he was into my friend.
I don't mind.
subsequently,
he fell so hard as he was rejected.
he told me,
he wont give up on her.

I,
at the moment,
was sad,
but not really affected,

I,
even wish,
he will be with her,
eventually,
but,
she is now,
with another man,

to the scale of 100,
I knew he was broken,
as he gathered the pieces into one,
he is alive,
again,

to see him,
alive,
I was happy,
at the moment,

Later on,
he fell into another girl.

Again,
I don't mind,

But, 
I was disappointed,

because,
the girl
who he thought has won her heart,
actually,
is taking him for granted.

I know her,
for,
she always said,
something not nice to be heard,
about him,
how she is actually disgusted,
and sort of.

at this moment,
she is being close,
for the sake of her good,
her design,
her assignments

everyone knows,
after certain circumstance,
she will leave,
how selfish she is

but I know,
he doesn't mind,
he loves her so much,
isn't he?

I
am disappointed, 
for he,
was so blind,
with beauty,
on the appearance.

He deserves better.

This time,
I'm done,

No matter what I do,
I will never,
win his heart,
I know,
I don't have the beauty,
he is seeking for,

I never fall for someone this long.
This time,
the heart broke is indeed real,

surely,
Time will heal,

From the bottom of my heart,
I am letting him go,
Slowly,

I hope,
the best for you


Love,
Jijie



Thanks for reading, my heart