Hiiiiiiiii
Tomorrow i am going home !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally, after 7 weeks being captive and dumped at this small place; a college, I'll be free for a while.
May be it's just a while but I'll make it worth.
It has been 5 months since I enrolled myself as a student at this matriculation college. The first 3 months were really suck. The thoughts of home were always killing me. Tears streaming out everyday every night. I cried most of the time.
K bye
Oct 2, 2014
Jan 30, 2014
confession of a pathetic me
hi
tears drop as I watched the trailer of The Fault in Our Stars movie. I...I can feel her, Hazel ( heroin of the movie/novel). dia sakit . kanser. She have to wear apa benda tah orang panggil tiub tu, macam alat pernafasan setiap masa. It's so obvious. kalau aku pakai pon mesti rasa malu. kenapa aku cakap aku boleh rasa dia ? sebab aku pon ada penyakit. my both eyeballs weren't normal like other people. mine were red. sebenarnya bukan penyakit sebab my eyes just red , tak sakit pon dan tak berjangkit. my eyes jadi macam ni since I was 10 year old dan aku hanya sedar selepas seminggu aku balik dari Terengganu. dah macam-macam doktor aku jumpa, doktor pakar, doktor biasa, berubat tradisional etc tapi masih juga tak sembuh. It's hard to live with my eyes red all the time. and you know what it's freaking tiring when you have to answer the same damn question every time you meet new people.
"kenapa mata merah"
"eh tak sakit ke"
"eh pergi lah jumpa doktor"
I HATE THOSE QUESTIONS ...SERIOUSLY
HATE
ANNOYING
PATHETIC
FREAKING SAD
sad
sad
very sad
because of those things I have no self-esteem. that's why I hate crowd, school and yes my life. I sometimes hate my life either. People always look down at me like I am a contaminated person without even knowing the true situation. and of course I don't have any boyfriend. whose the stupid person yang nak orang macam aku ni. sobs. pathetic. anyways I'm so thankful because my best friends and some people can accept me the way I am.
aku nak pergi PLKN. but because of this problem I'm not gonna participating the plkn. I just can't bear people looking at me like !@#&^P* and to answer the same questions over and over again.
percayalah , aku risau time aku nak sambung belajar. ya Allah.help me.
later when that movie has been released I'm gonna watch it. I wanna go watch it badly.
p/s : on Saturday , I'm flying to Amsterdam, Netherland. pray for my safe journey ya ! I'm nervous and scared
xoxo, J
tears drop as I watched the trailer of The Fault in Our Stars movie. I...I can feel her, Hazel ( heroin of the movie/novel). dia sakit . kanser. She have to wear apa benda tah orang panggil tiub tu, macam alat pernafasan setiap masa. It's so obvious. kalau aku pakai pon mesti rasa malu. kenapa aku cakap aku boleh rasa dia ? sebab aku pon ada penyakit. my both eyeballs weren't normal like other people. mine were red. sebenarnya bukan penyakit sebab my eyes just red , tak sakit pon dan tak berjangkit. my eyes jadi macam ni since I was 10 year old dan aku hanya sedar selepas seminggu aku balik dari Terengganu. dah macam-macam doktor aku jumpa, doktor pakar, doktor biasa, berubat tradisional etc tapi masih juga tak sembuh. It's hard to live with my eyes red all the time. and you know what it's freaking tiring when you have to answer the same damn question every time you meet new people.
"kenapa mata merah"
"eh tak sakit ke"
"eh pergi lah jumpa doktor"
I HATE THOSE QUESTIONS ...SERIOUSLY
HATE
ANNOYING
PATHETIC
FREAKING SAD
sad
sad
very sad
because of those things I have no self-esteem. that's why I hate crowd, school and yes my life. I sometimes hate my life either. People always look down at me like I am a contaminated person without even knowing the true situation. and of course I don't have any boyfriend. whose the stupid person yang nak orang macam aku ni. sobs. pathetic. anyways I'm so thankful because my best friends and some people can accept me the way I am.
aku nak pergi PLKN. but because of this problem I'm not gonna participating the plkn. I just can't bear people looking at me like !@#&^P* and to answer the same questions over and over again.
percayalah , aku risau time aku nak sambung belajar. ya Allah.help me.
later when that movie has been released I'm gonna watch it. I wanna go watch it badly.
p/s : on Saturday , I'm flying to Amsterdam, Netherland. pray for my safe journey ya ! I'm nervous and scared
xoxo, J
Jan 29, 2014
Love
bawa aku pergi,
pacu laju-laju,
kita lari dari realiti,
bawa aku pergi,
pacu laju lagi,
moga kita tak perlu kembali.
so hi.
I'm just done watching Destinasi Ria. Episode kali ini menampilkan chef Nik dan chef Fikree bercuti di India. aku suka tengok rancangan ni (destinasi ria) sebab setiap minggu dia punya destinasi tu berbeza. When I watched the show ..it's like I was with them... jalan sana sini. rasa happy sangat. tak rasa macam ada dekat rumah padahal aku just menonton dekat tv je. but i swear seriously kalau aku tengok rancangan jenis macam ni , Ya Allah seronoknya memang tak terkata. may be spirit of wanderlust aku ni tinggi sangat kot.
Travel. Traveller. Travelling. Backpacker.
YE AKU SUKA TRAVEL. harapan aku ialah nak travel around the world tapi masalah duit tak cukup. agak-agak bila lah duit aku nak tinggi menggunung. My opinion kalau travel yang unspecific duration, seorang diri dan berdua tu seronok tapi agak risky lah kan. Kalau travel untuk specific duration, contohnya plan nak pergi suatu tempat untuk 3 hari, bergi ramai-ramai pon aku tak da masalah.
But I prefer travel untuk unspecific duration. Kalau boleh nak pergi seorang tapi kalau dah kahwin pergi berdua dengan suami (ehem. bukan honeymoon! ) lagi best. lagi-lagi kalau dapat husband yang share common interests ! travel yang aku inginkan bukanlah holiday yang menginap di hotel mewah, dinner dekat restoran mahal, shopping dekat mall negara lain etc. apa yang aku nak macam kais pagi makan pagi. travel setakat yang aku mampu. contohnya bawa backpack yg besar tu, tidur dekat cheap motel (asalkan ada tempat tidur), makan asal kenyang dan pakaian asal bersih dan selesa.live authentic baby. lepas tu melawat tempat-tempat bersejarah . dammit. balik-balik cerita pasal sejarah. (maaf kalau bosan..boleh tutup..kalau boleh jangan la bosannn ).
ye aku suka sejarah dan old buildings so much. so much. so much. old buildings biasanya berlumut, kotor, dinding pecah-pecah. tapi bagi aku the more ugly a building the prettier its soul. i just don't know why i fond of this kind of interest. sometimes, I think I'm weird and not normal and that's not ok and I hate it. Hate it. I hate it because aku mungkin tak dapat nak cari partner travel yang suka benda yang sama macam aku suka. if dapat future spouse yg suka benda macam ni Alhamdulillah . kalau tak dapat, tak pa. dia boleh duduk rumah sementara aku cari partner yang lain. (partner time travel je ok).
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Aku dah deactivated akaun twitter aku. aku rasa aku pernah cakap yang aku tak suka sangat dengan social website. kalau boleh aku nak ada Blog je sebab aku suka membebel dan write out my thoughts. Facebook, Instagram etc tu bagi aku tak perlu. bagi aku bila people too exposed to social they eventually lost their identity. Hypocrite. aha that's the term (no offenses eh. ni bukan pointing finger dekat sesiapa). Nowadays masing-masing nak jadi popular famous up-to-date guy bla bla bla. come on , jujur je lah korang pon sometimes mesti ada rasa nak jadi famous jugak kan. nak follower ramai beratus beribu berpuluh ribu nak ada sponsorship. zaman sekarang ni asal famous je mesti orang yg lepak kat Starbucks shopping kat H&M pakai iphone pakai boot Dr Martens senang cerita semua nak yang mahal yang branded.
aku nak delete Facebook tapi connection dengan family ramai kat situ so anggaplah itu tempat pertemuan keluarga. so I'm not gonna delete it buat masa sekarang ni.
Twitter . aku rasa mcm takda function je. bagi aku tak de point pon tweet pasal perasaan aku yg takda orang baca pon kot dan fangirling melampau macam pfff. malas aku nak ambil tahu pasal One Direction dah. bosan.
Instagram biar lah aku simpan dulu buat masa ni.
ok bye.
mood: masih dalam proses packing barang
p/s : Insya Allah my first plane journey ever is on this Saturday. Gonna transit at Dubai for a couple of hours. I'm nervous and scared. Pray for me.
xoxo, J
Jan 26, 2014
shopping
hi !
tajuk hari ni adalah shopping ! a typical girl's passion indeed.
honestly, aku jarang shopping sebab a) aku masih seorang pelajar dan obviously still beg my parents for money. b) aku masih tinggal dengan parents.
i guess everyone understand reason a).
kenapa aku bagi reason b), masih tinggal dengan parents?
sebab aku lebih suka barang-barang keperluan rumah especially cooking appliances dan apa-apa yang berkenaan dengan barang dapur. trust me I don't own nafsu yang tinggi untuk stuffs such as clothes, shoes etc. aku pon tak tahu kenapa aku macam ni. kadang-kadang nak juga jadi macam teenage girls yang lain ( pandai dress up , selalu pergi shopping, pandai make up. aku ni cream muka pon tak reti pakai apatah lagi make up. nenek aku selalu kata aku ni tak pandai bergaya. sobs sobs). mungkin sebab aku rasa beli barang-barang macam tu membazir kot. aku pon malas nak tulis banyak pasal ni so lets proceed kepada barang yang aku suka.
kalau pergi mall , mata aku selalu tertarik dekat store yang jual barang-barang rumah including baby store (mostly benda yang aku suka dekat store jenis ni ialah strollers).
aku selalu berharap ada rumah sendiri secepat mungkin selepas aku tamat belajar. sebab aku nak beli barang-barang rumah banyak-banyak. wahh bestnya ! benda yang paling aku nak ialah pan // periuk yang colorful. spoons//forks yang shining.
nanti aku update lagi lah . tiba-tiba takda idea.
p/s : my heart cannot stop missing someone. slap me please
tajuk hari ni adalah shopping ! a typical girl's passion indeed.
honestly, aku jarang shopping sebab a) aku masih seorang pelajar dan obviously still beg my parents for money. b) aku masih tinggal dengan parents.
i guess everyone understand reason a).
kenapa aku bagi reason b), masih tinggal dengan parents?
sebab aku lebih suka barang-barang keperluan rumah especially cooking appliances dan apa-apa yang berkenaan dengan barang dapur. trust me I don't own nafsu yang tinggi untuk stuffs such as clothes, shoes etc. aku pon tak tahu kenapa aku macam ni. kadang-kadang nak juga jadi macam teenage girls yang lain ( pandai dress up , selalu pergi shopping, pandai make up. aku ni cream muka pon tak reti pakai apatah lagi make up. nenek aku selalu kata aku ni tak pandai bergaya. sobs sobs). mungkin sebab aku rasa beli barang-barang macam tu membazir kot. aku pon malas nak tulis banyak pasal ni so lets proceed kepada barang yang aku suka.
kalau pergi mall , mata aku selalu tertarik dekat store yang jual barang-barang rumah including baby store (mostly benda yang aku suka dekat store jenis ni ialah strollers).
aku selalu berharap ada rumah sendiri secepat mungkin selepas aku tamat belajar. sebab aku nak beli barang-barang rumah banyak-banyak. wahh bestnya ! benda yang paling aku nak ialah pan // periuk yang colorful. spoons//forks yang shining.
nanti aku update lagi lah . tiba-tiba takda idea.
p/s : my heart cannot stop missing someone. slap me please
Jan 11, 2014
Europe tour
hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
so today i'm gonna share something.
I'M GOING TO EUROPE IN FEBRUARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. probably on Feb, 1st. I've received the flight tickets through e-mail and I should have been printed them out. But sigh, my printer's out of inks. (I'm going to cyber cafe later)
to be honest I never thought of going to Europe at this very early age. well 18 is still young I guess. ( I hate that the fact I'm 18 because basically I just celebrated my 17th birthday like 2 months ago and because it's 2014 already and automatically my age become 18. That's not ok. )
I still remember I used to write my school essays about something that related to travel and even in Spm I still write about travelling. Travelling is fun though. You can explore and discover a lot of new things beside learn about other people's culture and etc. My opinion, there's no point of writing essays about heart broken or being left by love or kind of sad story or being cheated. Like seriously you've much more interesting story to write, haven't you? Flooding your essays book with emotions of your sad love story is just so a pathetic shit. I hate this sort of people. THEY ABSOLUTELY SHOULD STOP LOOKING FOR LOVE IN PEOPLE'S SYMPATHIES. oh crap ! I shouldn't have been wasting my time writing about this shit.
If I'm not mistaken I've had told you guys that I want to travel the world when I'm 25 years old. Because at the age of 25, I probably have enough pocket money. I never thought of marrying rich people because they got money to support me to fulfil my dream when I still can work my ass to earn pennies by myself. I just don't like to rely on people because at the end of the day we wont sure whether we got them (the rich guy). If you want something just pray to your God and start working yourself to achieve your dreams.
got to go now. I should have taking shower because today's a bestie' day out.
xoxo, J
so today i'm gonna share something.
I'M GOING TO EUROPE IN FEBRUARYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. probably on Feb, 1st. I've received the flight tickets through e-mail and I should have been printed them out. But sigh, my printer's out of inks. (I'm going to cyber cafe later)
to be honest I never thought of going to Europe at this very early age. well 18 is still young I guess. ( I hate that the fact I'm 18 because basically I just celebrated my 17th birthday like 2 months ago and because it's 2014 already and automatically my age become 18. That's not ok. )
I still remember I used to write my school essays about something that related to travel and even in Spm I still write about travelling. Travelling is fun though. You can explore and discover a lot of new things beside learn about other people's culture and etc. My opinion, there's no point of writing essays about heart broken or being left by love or kind of sad story or being cheated. Like seriously you've much more interesting story to write, haven't you? Flooding your essays book with emotions of your sad love story is just so a pathetic shit. I hate this sort of people. THEY ABSOLUTELY SHOULD STOP LOOKING FOR LOVE IN PEOPLE'S SYMPATHIES. oh crap ! I shouldn't have been wasting my time writing about this shit.
If I'm not mistaken I've had told you guys that I want to travel the world when I'm 25 years old. Because at the age of 25, I probably have enough pocket money. I never thought of marrying rich people because they got money to support me to fulfil my dream when I still can work my ass to earn pennies by myself. I just don't like to rely on people because at the end of the day we wont sure whether we got them (the rich guy). If you want something just pray to your God and start working yourself to achieve your dreams.
got to go now. I should have taking shower because today's a bestie' day out.
xoxo, J
Jan 4, 2014
Dream high baby
hi
so today I would like to write about my dreams or things that I want in this life. Before that, this is yesterday's summary, everything went well like any other Friday ( I could tell you every Friday, mom and I will go to TESCO to buy groceries or just to have lunch at food court) but my cat, Ucen, he was stuck at a high place.
I'm going to tell you my dreams by listing them okay
THINGS I WANT // DREAM
1. Land. 1 acre at least. I want to build my own dream home.
2. Perfect house. every people have their own dream houses right? to me a house that perfect is when everything that you want is inside. well I may be don't afford to build a bungalow but it's not a big deal as long I have everything perfect in my house and a yard, it's enough. My small house must contains a big living room so I could locate few shelves and a big arm chair, no dining room, two rooms : a room for me and a room for my parents if they come visit, no master bedroom because I don't need it as it's my house so I could sleep at every place, a kitchen full of cooking stuff because I love them( cooking stuff), a bathroom and a room for my cats.
to be continue...
sorry. my head's spinning.
p/s : I NEED A HAIR CLIP. MY FRONT HAIR KEEP DISTURBING ME !!!!!! How can i forgot to buy it yesterday.................... sigh
xoxo
J
so today I would like to write about my dreams or things that I want in this life. Before that, this is yesterday's summary, everything went well like any other Friday ( I could tell you every Friday, mom and I will go to TESCO to buy groceries or just to have lunch at food court) but my cat, Ucen, he was stuck at a high place.
I'm going to tell you my dreams by listing them okay
THINGS I WANT // DREAM
1. Land. 1 acre at least. I want to build my own dream home.
2. Perfect house. every people have their own dream houses right? to me a house that perfect is when everything that you want is inside. well I may be don't afford to build a bungalow but it's not a big deal as long I have everything perfect in my house and a yard, it's enough. My small house must contains a big living room so I could locate few shelves and a big arm chair, no dining room, two rooms : a room for me and a room for my parents if they come visit, no master bedroom because I don't need it as it's my house so I could sleep at every place, a kitchen full of cooking stuff because I love them( cooking stuff), a bathroom and a room for my cats.
to be continue...
sorry. my head's spinning.
p/s : I NEED A HAIR CLIP. MY FRONT HAIR KEEP DISTURBING ME !!!!!! How can i forgot to buy it yesterday.................... sigh
xoxo
J
Jan 3, 2014
no one should know
hi
-Miley Cyrus- We can't stop-
one of my favourite song. I love to listen and sing this song so much and yeah I love miley too. she's so perf . she still young but she has everything.
remember only God can judge ya,
forget the haters 'cause somebody loves ya--
so la da di da di
we like to party--
doing what ever we want
this is our house
this is our rules
-Miley Cyrus- We can't stop-
one of my favourite song. I love to listen and sing this song so much and yeah I love miley too. she's so perf . she still young but she has everything.
Jan 2, 2014
them
hi !
so sekarang pukul 12.15 a.m. aku masih di depan laptop stalking and investigating people and the world while group chatting via wechat. sementara tu si Oren tidur belakang laptop, si Cak tidur bawah kerusi, Si Tim tak dapat dikesan dan Si Ucen aka Uten tidur dekat loteng agaknya.
Si Ucen kena buli lagi sampai kaki bengkak dan berdarah..
Emy hantar cat emoticon dkat wechat dan time tu si Oren(my baby kitten) tengah main-main kat sebelah aku. Lepas tu dia pandang je aku punya screen tab. aku pon pandang dia..dia naik atas tab.aku pandang.then dia tepuk-tepuk screen tu macam nak tarik gambar kucing dalam tu. tapi tak dapat. dia pandang lagi. tepuk-tepuk lagi and he eventually surrender.
* * *
so demam, selsema dan batuk dah berkurang . Alhamdulillah.
aku tak tahu la sama ada aku allergic pada brownies or what. 3 hari lepas aku makan walnut brownies. malam tu aku demam. tapi sebelum tu aku tengah selsema tapi takda lah teruk sangat. last time aku makan brownie yg sama kalau tak silap, pon aku dapat demam lepas tu. lebih kurang seminggu jugak aku demam sebab time tu aku makan banyak sebab beli yg whole so aku ni yg memang tersangat sukakan coklat makanlah dengan banyak sekali. tapi sebenarnya brownies tak sedap pon, seriously......
p/s: Days 24 - still searching for my armpit hair clipper. sigh.
xoxo,
J
so sekarang pukul 12.15 a.m. aku masih di depan laptop stalking and investigating people and the world while group chatting via wechat. sementara tu si Oren tidur belakang laptop, si Cak tidur bawah kerusi, Si Tim tak dapat dikesan dan Si Ucen aka Uten tidur dekat loteng agaknya.
Si Ucen kena buli lagi sampai kaki bengkak dan berdarah..
Emy hantar cat emoticon dkat wechat dan time tu si Oren(my baby kitten) tengah main-main kat sebelah aku. Lepas tu dia pandang je aku punya screen tab. aku pon pandang dia..dia naik atas tab.aku pandang.then dia tepuk-tepuk screen tu macam nak tarik gambar kucing dalam tu. tapi tak dapat. dia pandang lagi. tepuk-tepuk lagi and he eventually surrender.
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so demam, selsema dan batuk dah berkurang . Alhamdulillah.
aku tak tahu la sama ada aku allergic pada brownies or what. 3 hari lepas aku makan walnut brownies. malam tu aku demam. tapi sebelum tu aku tengah selsema tapi takda lah teruk sangat. last time aku makan brownie yg sama kalau tak silap, pon aku dapat demam lepas tu. lebih kurang seminggu jugak aku demam sebab time tu aku makan banyak sebab beli yg whole so aku ni yg memang tersangat sukakan coklat makanlah dengan banyak sekali. tapi sebenarnya brownies tak sedap pon, seriously......
p/s: Days 24 - still searching for my armpit hair clipper. sigh.
xoxo,
J
Jan 1, 2014
love
Assalamualaikum . hi !
today is January,1st 2014.. IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR EVERYONEEEEEEEEEE.
HAPPY 2014 Y'ALLS.
my new year wish/hope? no.. I don't have any because I always fail to work my ass for a wish. so there's no brand new me brand new you brand new us or whatsoever.
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Dec, 30 2013.
was celebrating Emy's birthday with all my best friends. I didn't expecting Mirol to join us due to a reason but he did came at last. geram betul aku dengan Mirol. dah 2 tahun tak jumpa since he went to a boarding school. bila dapat jumpa dapat lah aku melepaskan rindu dan marah yg dah lama terpendam dalam lubuk hati aku ni. cehh ayat...seriously, rasa macam takda beza pon dan tak janggal langsung.biasanya kalau ber best friend dengan orang yg lain jantina bila dah lama tak jumpa mestila rasa janggal or segan . kan? cakap pon 'cover-cover'. but not us. the six of us still can make joke of each other ! 4 jam kitorang bersembang non-stop sebab dah lama tak jumpa.kitorang sempat juga bincang pasal kahwin bagai, mentang-mentang dah habis sekolah . aku tersangat happy sebab boleh berkumpul semula dengan diorang.
I'm so grateful to have them in my life. I love you besties...hope our friendship will long-lasting until Jannah.
lots of love,
J
today is January,1st 2014.. IT'S A BRAND NEW YEAR EVERYONEEEEEEEEEE.
HAPPY 2014 Y'ALLS.
my new year wish/hope? no.. I don't have any because I always fail to work my ass for a wish. so there's no brand new me brand new you brand new us or whatsoever.
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Dec, 30 2013.
was celebrating Emy's birthday with all my best friends. I didn't expecting Mirol to join us due to a reason but he did came at last. geram betul aku dengan Mirol. dah 2 tahun tak jumpa since he went to a boarding school. bila dapat jumpa dapat lah aku melepaskan rindu dan marah yg dah lama terpendam dalam lubuk hati aku ni. cehh ayat...seriously, rasa macam takda beza pon dan tak janggal langsung.biasanya kalau ber best friend dengan orang yg lain jantina bila dah lama tak jumpa mestila rasa janggal or segan . kan? cakap pon 'cover-cover'. but not us. the six of us still can make joke of each other ! 4 jam kitorang bersembang non-stop sebab dah lama tak jumpa.kitorang sempat juga bincang pasal kahwin bagai, mentang-mentang dah habis sekolah . aku tersangat happy sebab boleh berkumpul semula dengan diorang.
I'm so grateful to have them in my life. I love you besties...hope our friendship will long-lasting until Jannah.
lots of love,
J
Dec 28, 2013
WTH
home.home.home.
i'm home !!! hey i'm home!!!!!
so minggu depan sekolah bermula. nasib baik aku dah habis sekolah. hehe. seghhonoknya. adik aku yang sorang tu dah masuk Form 1 minggu depan. lagi seorang baru darjah 4. oh aku ada lebih kurang 5 bulan cuti sebelum aku masuk universiti ke matriks ke atau apa-apa je la.so plan aku sepanjang cuti ni cuma membaca dan tengok movies dan pet my cats. my mom asked me to find a job but you know..me.. job...no... malas pula rasanya nak kerja. tengok lah dulu... my grandma offered me ambil lesen kereta dengan syarat aku kena duduk kat kampung sehingga selesai belajar memandu..aku tolak offer tu. 3 bulan duduk kat kampung , ughhh lama tu.. actually kampung aku tu bukan kampung tapi Felda. rumah felda tu rapat-rapat , tu yang tak seronok tu. kalau lah moyang aku dulu tak apply kan rumah felda untuk anak-anak dia mesti sekarang nenek aku tak duduk kat situ.. aku teringin sangat nak ada kampung yang macam kampung..
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Belakangan ni I keep dreaming of someone. Someone who used to be my best friend many years ago. That someone is a guy. A guy who I hated the most after his come back. Those who read my blog please jangan tanya siapa dia. tiada siapa perlu tahu siapa dia meskipun siapa dia tahu siapa dia. Obviously that guy wasn't Amirul fullstop
tadi time aku tengah loading movie, aku tertidur .aku mimpi dia lagi. it was a sweet dream though. I love the way he treated me in the dream. He's tender and such a perfect guy. Well it was just a dream. In reality he's kind of .. hmmm... never mind.
ok bye
xoxo J
i'm home !!! hey i'm home!!!!!
so minggu depan sekolah bermula. nasib baik aku dah habis sekolah. hehe. seghhonoknya. adik aku yang sorang tu dah masuk Form 1 minggu depan. lagi seorang baru darjah 4. oh aku ada lebih kurang 5 bulan cuti sebelum aku masuk universiti ke matriks ke atau apa-apa je la.so plan aku sepanjang cuti ni cuma membaca dan tengok movies dan pet my cats. my mom asked me to find a job but you know..me.. job...no... malas pula rasanya nak kerja. tengok lah dulu... my grandma offered me ambil lesen kereta dengan syarat aku kena duduk kat kampung sehingga selesai belajar memandu..aku tolak offer tu. 3 bulan duduk kat kampung , ughhh lama tu.. actually kampung aku tu bukan kampung tapi Felda. rumah felda tu rapat-rapat , tu yang tak seronok tu. kalau lah moyang aku dulu tak apply kan rumah felda untuk anak-anak dia mesti sekarang nenek aku tak duduk kat situ.. aku teringin sangat nak ada kampung yang macam kampung..
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Belakangan ni I keep dreaming of someone. Someone who used to be my best friend many years ago. That someone is a guy. A guy who I hated the most after his come back. Those who read my blog please jangan tanya siapa dia. tiada siapa perlu tahu siapa dia meskipun siapa dia tahu siapa dia. Obviously that guy wasn't Amirul fullstop
tadi time aku tengah loading movie, aku tertidur .aku mimpi dia lagi. it was a sweet dream though. I love the way he treated me in the dream. He's tender and such a perfect guy. Well it was just a dream. In reality he's kind of .. hmmm... never mind.
ok bye
xoxo J
Dec 17, 2013
TRIP Part 3
hi !
good morning ladies and gentlemen..
hari ni aku nak sambung pasal trip. (actually, i am so lazy to post about it because cerita tu dah basi tapi disebabkan aku dah mulakan so i have to finish it )
FIGHTING JIJIE FIGHTING !
so as the title above...hmmm... malam tu kitorang ke pusat falak (bukan nama sebenar, aku tak ingat lah apa namanya).. mula-mula pergi ke ruang pameran and guess what, aku dengan Farah agak seronok menekan butang-butang yang ada kat situ. then kitorang ke dewan kuliah. dekat situ ada orang bagi penerangan pasal sistem solar. It was so fun learning about the solar system until myself cant even pay any attention sebab bilik tu sejuk gila! time tu mula lah dalam kepala aku fikirkan tindakan badan kita ketika dalam keadaan sejuk. you know, we learnt it in Biology form 5. aku ni selalu sangat kaitkan apa yang berlaku dengan facts yang aku belajar kat sekolah. It's like my head automatically digesting thing that is happening in real life and the blending it with facts that i have learnt. to be honest , itu adalah satu cara aku belajar selama ni. tapi aku tak boleh tahan lah kalau asyik fikirkan pasal tu. ex: aku tengah basuh pinggan dengan sabun lepas tu kepala aku ni asyik fikir pasal saponifikasi and I keep asking myself what if I put some milk into the soap.kekat.kekat.kekat. kekat tu berlaku apabila terdapat ion magnesium dan ion kalsium dalam air jadi sabun tak dapat berfungsi. lebih kurang macam tu lah. you know what, living like this is so tiring. okay , sambung pasal dalam bilik kuliah. bila dapat keluar dari bilik tu Ya Allah rasa bersyukur sangat sebab Malaysia ni panas. lepas tu naik ke ruang terbuka untuk tengok langit malam tu and apply benda yang aku dah belajar dalam dewan tu tadi. and BANGGGG!!! dekat atas tu lagi lah sejuk!!! It was a windy and cold night though. aku ni kalau sejuk sangat , lutut kaki aku macam sakit sikit dan aku tak tahu kenapa. tangan aku pula macam dah nak beku, tak tahan aku time tu. then kitorang pergi dinner. we went to a small town. Ya Allah makanan kat situ boring gila. balik-balik KFC. kalu tak KFC, MCD pulak. nasib baik ada kedai mamak berdekatan dengan KFC tapi.... hmmm .. macam biasa ramai lelaki tengah tengok bola.. Malaysia vs Japan kot . lepas tu aku ajak Farah pergi gerai burger and lepas tu Farah ajak aku ikut Bai dengan Amin(the only 2 boys yg ikut trip tu) cari restoran lain sekitar tu.. kawasan tu macam takde banyak sangat kedai makan. lepas kitorang jalan tu terjumpa 2 buah restoran. satu restoran mamak dan satu lagi restoran melayu. aku pon tak tahu kenapa aku pilih yang melayu punya even though restoran tu tak menarik langsung. entah lah, mungkin itu rezeki tuan punya restoran. aku order milo dan nasi goreng kampung. rasa milo dia fake gilaaa. dah macam bukan milo aku rasa. well, i am a good judger. aku ni kalau bab makanan cerewet sikit. aku dapat bezakan benda even benda tu tak da beza sangat. ex: ummi aku pernah beli beras jenama apa tah dan bukan jenama biasa yang kitaorang guna sebab time tu ekonomi teruk sikit. well ekonomi keluarga bukan nya selalu stabil kan. time tu aku tak tahu pula mak aku try guna beras lain and time aku makan nasi I was like "ummi, kenapa nasi ni rasa dia kosong. macam tak ada kanji?" then baru lah ummi aku bagi tahu ..lepas tu tukar balik kepada beras asal. hahah . kalau tak aku takda selera nak makan nasi. teruk teruk..
okay sambung balik cerita pasal trip. time tengah makan cikgu call. cikgu kata semua orang dah ada dalam bas tinggal the four of us yang belum sampai-sampai lagi. tapi kita orang buat tak tahu je sebab belum pukol 11.00 p.m. lagi. habis makan. bayar. jalan balik ke bas. sepanjang perjalanan balik tu Amin duk bising pertikaikan harga makanan dia dengan Farah. fuhh, nasib baik aku dan Bai order benda yang sama, so , we have no problem dengan harga or whatsoever.
sampai dekat bas. duduk. bas bergerak. lol orang belakang kitorang dalam bas pon masih pertikaikan harga makanan.ughhh . apa apa je lah
ok bye.
p/s: aku macam tak dapat je nak pergi jamuan. aku dah suruh Lana tangguhkan tapi tak tahu lagi lah. invitations dia pon katanya tak dapat respon so tak tahu lah ramai ke tak yang akan datang. kalau tak ramai boleh tak postpone kan dulu? hmmm. siapalah aku nak minta-minta ni. sobs
lots of love,
J
good morning ladies and gentlemen..
hari ni aku nak sambung pasal trip. (actually, i am so lazy to post about it because cerita tu dah basi tapi disebabkan aku dah mulakan so i have to finish it )
FIGHTING JIJIE FIGHTING !
so as the title above...hmmm... malam tu kitorang ke pusat falak (bukan nama sebenar, aku tak ingat lah apa namanya).. mula-mula pergi ke ruang pameran and guess what, aku dengan Farah agak seronok menekan butang-butang yang ada kat situ. then kitorang ke dewan kuliah. dekat situ ada orang bagi penerangan pasal sistem solar. It was so fun learning about the solar system until myself cant even pay any attention sebab bilik tu sejuk gila! time tu mula lah dalam kepala aku fikirkan tindakan badan kita ketika dalam keadaan sejuk. you know, we learnt it in Biology form 5. aku ni selalu sangat kaitkan apa yang berlaku dengan facts yang aku belajar kat sekolah. It's like my head automatically digesting thing that is happening in real life and the blending it with facts that i have learnt. to be honest , itu adalah satu cara aku belajar selama ni. tapi aku tak boleh tahan lah kalau asyik fikirkan pasal tu. ex: aku tengah basuh pinggan dengan sabun lepas tu kepala aku ni asyik fikir pasal saponifikasi and I keep asking myself what if I put some milk into the soap.kekat.kekat.kekat. kekat tu berlaku apabila terdapat ion magnesium dan ion kalsium dalam air jadi sabun tak dapat berfungsi. lebih kurang macam tu lah. you know what, living like this is so tiring. okay , sambung pasal dalam bilik kuliah. bila dapat keluar dari bilik tu Ya Allah rasa bersyukur sangat sebab Malaysia ni panas. lepas tu naik ke ruang terbuka untuk tengok langit malam tu and apply benda yang aku dah belajar dalam dewan tu tadi. and BANGGGG!!! dekat atas tu lagi lah sejuk!!! It was a windy and cold night though. aku ni kalau sejuk sangat , lutut kaki aku macam sakit sikit dan aku tak tahu kenapa. tangan aku pula macam dah nak beku, tak tahan aku time tu. then kitorang pergi dinner. we went to a small town. Ya Allah makanan kat situ boring gila. balik-balik KFC. kalu tak KFC, MCD pulak. nasib baik ada kedai mamak berdekatan dengan KFC tapi.... hmmm .. macam biasa ramai lelaki tengah tengok bola.. Malaysia vs Japan kot . lepas tu aku ajak Farah pergi gerai burger and lepas tu Farah ajak aku ikut Bai dengan Amin(the only 2 boys yg ikut trip tu) cari restoran lain sekitar tu.. kawasan tu macam takde banyak sangat kedai makan. lepas kitorang jalan tu terjumpa 2 buah restoran. satu restoran mamak dan satu lagi restoran melayu. aku pon tak tahu kenapa aku pilih yang melayu punya even though restoran tu tak menarik langsung. entah lah, mungkin itu rezeki tuan punya restoran. aku order milo dan nasi goreng kampung. rasa milo dia fake gilaaa. dah macam bukan milo aku rasa. well, i am a good judger. aku ni kalau bab makanan cerewet sikit. aku dapat bezakan benda even benda tu tak da beza sangat. ex: ummi aku pernah beli beras jenama apa tah dan bukan jenama biasa yang kitaorang guna sebab time tu ekonomi teruk sikit. well ekonomi keluarga bukan nya selalu stabil kan. time tu aku tak tahu pula mak aku try guna beras lain and time aku makan nasi I was like "ummi, kenapa nasi ni rasa dia kosong. macam tak ada kanji?" then baru lah ummi aku bagi tahu ..lepas tu tukar balik kepada beras asal. hahah . kalau tak aku takda selera nak makan nasi. teruk teruk..
okay sambung balik cerita pasal trip. time tengah makan cikgu call. cikgu kata semua orang dah ada dalam bas tinggal the four of us yang belum sampai-sampai lagi. tapi kita orang buat tak tahu je sebab belum pukol 11.00 p.m. lagi. habis makan. bayar. jalan balik ke bas. sepanjang perjalanan balik tu Amin duk bising pertikaikan harga makanan dia dengan Farah. fuhh, nasib baik aku dan Bai order benda yang sama, so , we have no problem dengan harga or whatsoever.
sampai dekat bas. duduk. bas bergerak. lol orang belakang kitorang dalam bas pon masih pertikaikan harga makanan.ughhh . apa apa je lah
ok bye.
p/s: aku macam tak dapat je nak pergi jamuan. aku dah suruh Lana tangguhkan tapi tak tahu lagi lah. invitations dia pon katanya tak dapat respon so tak tahu lah ramai ke tak yang akan datang. kalau tak ramai boleh tak postpone kan dulu? hmmm. siapalah aku nak minta-minta ni. sobs
lots of love,
J
Dec 16, 2013
December
7.35 a.m.
hi !
sekarang ni aku masih duduk di rumah nenek di Negeri Sembilan. nak update blog ni payah sikit sebab aku agak busy jaga adik-adik dan kucing-kucing aku as my parents weren't around. I have to take care of everything...
so cuti kali ni I've learnt so many things. ex: memasak, kemas rumah sikit-sikit dan jaga adik-adik..aku pon tak tahu macam mana aku boleh nak belajar semua benda tu sebab sebenarnya aku ni seorang yang pemalas.
(waktu aku tengah update blog ni , si Tim dan Ucen kepoh betul nak masuk bila aku! si Tim tu lah yang suka cium orang)
malam tadi aku main bina ayat menggunakan satu perkataan dan main tulis 6 perkara yang menggunakan huruf yang diberi. okay ini hanyalah aktiviti waktu lapang yg nenek aku buat. so kami (cucu-cucu) akan main ni waktu malam. setiap ayat yang betul worth RM1 so tulis lah banyak mana yang sempat. walaupon aku ni dah habis SPM tapi aku ni bab membina ayat ni lah yang aku tak reti. aku kalah. adik aku yang baru habis UPSR tu jugak yang menang. hahahah. teruk betul aku.
p/s : i hate social website actually and i gonna tell the reasons later and the reason why i am still blogging
lots of love,
J
hi !
sekarang ni aku masih duduk di rumah nenek di Negeri Sembilan. nak update blog ni payah sikit sebab aku agak busy jaga adik-adik dan kucing-kucing aku as my parents weren't around. I have to take care of everything...
so cuti kali ni I've learnt so many things. ex: memasak, kemas rumah sikit-sikit dan jaga adik-adik..aku pon tak tahu macam mana aku boleh nak belajar semua benda tu sebab sebenarnya aku ni seorang yang pemalas.
(waktu aku tengah update blog ni , si Tim dan Ucen kepoh betul nak masuk bila aku! si Tim tu lah yang suka cium orang)
malam tadi aku main bina ayat menggunakan satu perkataan dan main tulis 6 perkara yang menggunakan huruf yang diberi. okay ini hanyalah aktiviti waktu lapang yg nenek aku buat. so kami (cucu-cucu) akan main ni waktu malam. setiap ayat yang betul worth RM1 so tulis lah banyak mana yang sempat. walaupon aku ni dah habis SPM tapi aku ni bab membina ayat ni lah yang aku tak reti. aku kalah. adik aku yang baru habis UPSR tu jugak yang menang. hahahah. teruk betul aku.
p/s : i hate social website actually and i gonna tell the reasons later and the reason why i am still blogging
lots of love,
J
Dec 9, 2013
TRIP Part 2
hi !
cehh macam lah ada orang baca siap nak ber-hi! hi!
whatever :P
so today I'm gonna continue about the trip.
lepas ke taman rama-rama, we went straight to our accommodation at Tanjung Bidara. kitorang duduk dekat dalam dorm. teringat zaman kat asrama dulu-dulu. dulu, aku duduk kat asrama sebulan pon dah macam apa dah. pehh senior dia semua bajet gilosss. okay sambung pasal trip tu...dorm aku kat atas sekali.. takda lift but it wasn't a big deal pon.. tempat tinggal kitorang(aku dan classmates) betul-betul kat tepi pantai.. best gila! aku plan nak ajak sesiapa pergi pantai lepas letak barang-barang dalam dorm , tapi aku tengok all my classmates were totally exhausted and they need a quick rest before next activity. aku jenis yang suka berjalan. kalau dah sampai tempat yang aku tak pernah pergi kalau boleh sampai ke lubang cacing aku nak explore. aku tak suka bila kata nak pergi holiday tapi bila sampai kat hotel terus duduk dalam hotel tak pergi mana-mana.. (kalau gi holiday dengan family , perkara macam ni mesti terjadi punyalah) tapi apakan daya, nak tak nak kena lah lepak sama kat hotel tu je.. I don't care kalau ke mana-mana seorang diri tapi masalahnya parents gua might not give permission punya lah I bet. tapi aku dah rancang nak travel oversea time aku 25 tahun nanti. travel sensorang pon aku tak kisah tapi time tu kalau aku ada boyfriend, bagus jugak kalau aku heret dia travel dengan aku.. boleh dia angkat backpack aku nanti. cehhhh.... hahahah I'm not that cruel tho.. kalau travel dua orang pon best jugak kan.. kalau boleh aku nak pi tempat yang ada banyak bangunan bersejarah , ex: Rome ,Berlin etc...aku minat sejarah. aku pernah jugak bercita-cita nak jadi ahli sejarah tapi family aku tak galakkan sangat.. that's why i don't have any ambition and i hate when people ask me what i want to be when i've grown up because i really really don't have any answer for that question.okay sorry .. aku ni dah keluar dari tajuk.. oh pasal kat dorm . i was like "okay nevermind, kalau takde siapa-siapa nak pergi pantai" dan aku a little bit macam cacing kepanasan dalam dorm. aku asyik jalan sana jalan sini, seriously time tu aku bosan. aku ni memang selagi tak penat aku tak boleh nak duduk diam.. lepas tu aku ternampak dari tingkap yang kawan-kawan lelaki yg ikut trip (2 orang je yg ikut) heading to the beach. and again I was like asdasfdsafhjskhfjksh. seronoknya jadi lelaki seronoknya jadi lelaki seronoknya. hati aku memberontak gilerrr. aku tetap nak pergi pantai. so aku paksa best friend aku yg satu ni . so kitorang turun bawah dan cari jalan nak pergi beach and guess what the only way to the beach adalah dengan keluar ikut pintu depan and we dont have any gut untuk keluar dari kawasan tu.. sebenarnya aku takut kalau cikgu marah..so kitorang naik balik dan duduk dalam dorm sampai pukol 7.30 p.m. macam tu..
sampai sini yang dapat aku tulis untuk post kali ni. sebenarnya aku nak tulis panjang lagi, tapi aku dah banyak keluar dari topik so ciao dulu .
p/s: dalam part 1 aku ada cakap aku dapat guna basikal for free and thanks to my BFF. actually thanks to my BFF and friends . XX
bye.
lots of love,
J
cehh macam lah ada orang baca siap nak ber-hi! hi!
whatever :P
so today I'm gonna continue about the trip.
lepas ke taman rama-rama, we went straight to our accommodation at Tanjung Bidara. kitorang duduk dekat dalam dorm. teringat zaman kat asrama dulu-dulu. dulu, aku duduk kat asrama sebulan pon dah macam apa dah. pehh senior dia semua bajet gilosss. okay sambung pasal trip tu...dorm aku kat atas sekali.. takda lift but it wasn't a big deal pon.. tempat tinggal kitorang(aku dan classmates) betul-betul kat tepi pantai.. best gila! aku plan nak ajak sesiapa pergi pantai lepas letak barang-barang dalam dorm , tapi aku tengok all my classmates were totally exhausted and they need a quick rest before next activity. aku jenis yang suka berjalan. kalau dah sampai tempat yang aku tak pernah pergi kalau boleh sampai ke lubang cacing aku nak explore. aku tak suka bila kata nak pergi holiday tapi bila sampai kat hotel terus duduk dalam hotel tak pergi mana-mana.. (kalau gi holiday dengan family , perkara macam ni mesti terjadi punyalah) tapi apakan daya, nak tak nak kena lah lepak sama kat hotel tu je.. I don't care kalau ke mana-mana seorang diri tapi masalahnya parents gua might not give permission punya lah I bet. tapi aku dah rancang nak travel oversea time aku 25 tahun nanti. travel sensorang pon aku tak kisah tapi time tu kalau aku ada boyfriend, bagus jugak kalau aku heret dia travel dengan aku.. boleh dia angkat backpack aku nanti. cehhhh.... hahahah I'm not that cruel tho.. kalau travel dua orang pon best jugak kan.. kalau boleh aku nak pi tempat yang ada banyak bangunan bersejarah , ex: Rome ,Berlin etc...aku minat sejarah. aku pernah jugak bercita-cita nak jadi ahli sejarah tapi family aku tak galakkan sangat.. that's why i don't have any ambition and i hate when people ask me what i want to be when i've grown up because i really really don't have any answer for that question.okay sorry .. aku ni dah keluar dari tajuk.. oh pasal kat dorm . i was like "okay nevermind, kalau takde siapa-siapa nak pergi pantai" dan aku a little bit macam cacing kepanasan dalam dorm. aku asyik jalan sana jalan sini, seriously time tu aku bosan. aku ni memang selagi tak penat aku tak boleh nak duduk diam.. lepas tu aku ternampak dari tingkap yang kawan-kawan lelaki yg ikut trip (2 orang je yg ikut) heading to the beach. and again I was like asdasfdsafhjskhfjksh. seronoknya jadi lelaki seronoknya jadi lelaki seronoknya. hati aku memberontak gilerrr. aku tetap nak pergi pantai. so aku paksa best friend aku yg satu ni . so kitorang turun bawah dan cari jalan nak pergi beach and guess what the only way to the beach adalah dengan keluar ikut pintu depan and we dont have any gut untuk keluar dari kawasan tu.. sebenarnya aku takut kalau cikgu marah..so kitorang naik balik dan duduk dalam dorm sampai pukol 7.30 p.m. macam tu..
sampai sini yang dapat aku tulis untuk post kali ni. sebenarnya aku nak tulis panjang lagi, tapi aku dah banyak keluar dari topik so ciao dulu .
p/s: dalam part 1 aku ada cakap aku dapat guna basikal for free and thanks to my BFF. actually thanks to my BFF and friends . XX
bye.
lots of love,
J
Dec 7, 2013
TRIP Part 1
Hi I'm back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll post part 2 later okay.
p/s: aku atau J , dua-dua sama . dua-dua aku. so please jangan pedulikan itu.
lot of love,
J
okay so last wednesday I went to Melaka for class trip. I went there by bus and you know what i had made a right choice duduk dekat seat belakang. hahah okay , no one will understand this but me. so our first destination was botanical garden i guess. my friends and i were cycling about 7km dekat tempat tu. oh dekat sana kena sewa basikal but Alhamdulillah aku dapat guna basikal for free. heheh big thanks to my BFF. 7 km. 3km awal tu boleh lagi kayuh basikal laju. tapi lepas tu Ya Allah penat gila . bila naik bukit terpaksa lah tolak basikal tapi bila turun bukit wowwww it was really fun. turun bukit sambil kayuh basikal konon-konon macam dalam cerita fast and furious lah tu. tapi takut jugak lah kalau accident plus kawasan tu tersangat sunyi. to be honest i tak kisah tempat sunyi macam tu sebab time tu masih siang tapi i was so worry about my other 2 friends' safety. yelah dah la aku paksa kawan aku cycling lepas tu kalau ada apa-apa jadi teruklah aku kena kan kan. actually aku nak jalan sensorang tapi nanti cikgu risau pula and apa pula orang cakap nanti kalau perempuan jalan sorang-sorang. well typical malaysian kan sangat 'prihatin' . my friends and i had made it safely.oh we were having lunch at the garden as well. after about one hour we went to taman rama rama.. seronok juga kat taman rama-rama tu . oh ya i just realized yang aku dah tak berapa suka tengok ular apatah lagi pergi dekat dengan akuarium ular (akuarium? apa-apa je lah.....) . meremang bulu roma aku bila tengok semua ular kat situ! dah la kiri kanan ada akuarium ular tu..time tu rasa macam nak lari nak menjerit dan keluar dari tempat tu lepas tu masuk dalam bas dan nyorok bawah seat.. tapi, itu hanyalah macam....time tu aku cuma mampu tunggu. tunggu kawan-kawan aku tengok semua ular tu... like seriously rasa macam nak throwing out je.. it was different when I was 15th. so sepanjang hidup aku kalau tak silap aku pernah pegang ular dalam 2 kali. oh lepas tu tengok rama-rama yg dah diawet. then pergi kedai cederahati and i heard..... oh aku tak boleh tulis tentang tu .
aku lihat dan dengar lalu aku pergi kerna aku nampak mereka dan tak mahu ganggu.
aku lihat dan dengar lalu aku pergi kerna aku nampak mereka dan tak mahu ganggu.
i'll post part 2 later okay.
p/s: aku atau J , dua-dua sama . dua-dua aku. so please jangan pedulikan itu.
lot of love,
J
